What a day to appreciate.

Fall is such a great season. It makes me want to travel. and wear cute scarves. And killer boots. It actually makes me want to do a lot of things. I always learn new things when fall comes. The air is different. The leaves are different. It is a new chapter. I love new chapters. Fall brings new things. Pumpkins are becoming pumpkins. Leaves turn orange and red. The sky begins to look more and more blue. Change is good. Fall is good.

soon: camping. bluff park art show. volleyball tournaments. pumpkin patch/carving.

fall brings good music too.

“The way to disengage the heart from the love of one object is to fasten it in positive love to another. It is not by exposing the worthlessness of the former, but by addressing the worth and excellence of the latter that all old things are to be done away and all things are to become new. The only way to dispossess the heart of an old affection is by the expulsive power of a new one.”

-Thomas Chalmers

My church pastor preached about this on Sunday. The first commandment is love the Lord your God. With all your heart, soul, mind, and strength. If I do this everything should fall in place. Let me try to explain as he did. If its money I’m seeking after it will undoubtedly turn out to be a mistake. It will not satisfy me in the end. It is worthless. When I put forth an effort to turn from this there might be a void inside me. I first need to focus on filling it with God. This means I am ‘addressing the worth and excellence of the latter.’ Aka God. He is the only one who makes all things new. He will start working in me. He is worthy and excellent! I should love him with all my heart. soul. mind. and strength. Now, once I do this, I will be able to fully reach out to others and love them. Which is the second greatest commandment. But is equally important. The only way to do this is loving God. Because the love of the father is in me. (1 john). Therefore it is impossible to love others without loving God first. Or at all. So instead of focusing on the current sin or struggle look to God and love him. If we love him with everything inside of us, the old thing might be done away with. Something new and good will happen. Maybe loving others.

‘The only way to dispossess the heart of an old affection is by the expulsive power of a new one.’

me and my bf went garage saling this weekend. or garage sailing. heh. we went to a few flea markets. one of which we saw something very beautiful inside. ten very old men gathered playing guitars and singing. they were sitting in a circle. their songs consisted of old hymns. but they were upbeat and sounded somewhat bluegrass. we walked up and started listening to them and the old man on the mic said 'hey yall get up on this stage, we could use some talent by some young people!' and we laughed. they continued to play. we continued to dance off into the rest of the flea market.

ps i found some good treausures at the flea market. one item i purchased is a mary poppins silver spoon. except it is no longer very silver. its more of a gray color. it is a beaut. i heart mary poppins.

i usually walk to dinner, if im not in a hurry. well i saw something tonight that i usually dont see. ever. i saw a girl. with a lasso. lasso-ing a park bench. this is a true story. maybe she was pretending it was a cow. i do that sometimes. she might have been trying to impress a cowboy. since there are so many of those in florida. i would like to think she was training. for the gold. my friend eric made a good point..."at least the park bench didnt get away."

i was thinking about how different colors bring out peoples eyes. what if our eyes automatically changed colors to match your shirt? woa. magical. i would wear tie dye.

my first competitive college volleyball game is thursday. double header. i am very excited. however i had to take out my nose ring. rats. it was painful. emotionally.

fall is nearly here.

pretzel. prentzel. the second is the correct form.

me- 'hi, el guapo.'
el guapo- 'hi peyton.'
me- 'i like fish.'
el guapo- 'me too. your a fish.'

this weekend.

volleyball practice til 2 am thursday night. friday morning 5 am. home. errands with mom. cookies that needed icing. rafting trip with college group. ocoee river, chattanooga. bed time 2 am. musical improv with kristin. recorder and harmonica= laughs. magical things nearly appeared that night. 7 am breakfast. rafting. glorious. river. beautiful. mountain view. yes. river guide julia. cute bus driver. mmm. home. lingerie shower for my bestest. good times. chocolate fountain. chocolate. abundance. sunday. disc golf. back to school. sunday night. play time with el guapo. he was surely missed.

i let a friend of mine give me bangs. my forehead looks so good.

i bought some china today. vintage china. 2 large plates, 4 small plates, 4 small bowls, and 4 small coffee mugs. mustard yellow with some brown designs. 5 dollars.

me and my cousin are making clothes. we got some old skirts today that will be dresses soon.

i just burried some orange seeds in my backyard hoping it will one day turn into an orange tree. i am confident.

brooke waggoner. mmm. so good to my soul.

i am painting something soon. ive got miraculous ideas.

white water rafting this weekend. this is part of my search of el dorado.

i have been thinking a lot about pleaseing the Lord. i feel like God has placed this on my heart maybe bc its something i need to work on. it is heavy. i am so corrupt. even when i do good things, they are filthy. bloody. i am working on loving more. serving more. having pure thoughts. kind thoughts. making my attitude better. i am going to carefully determine what pleases the Lord. or at least try. i want to be wise. and i want there to be purpose. i dont want to act thoughtless. change. this is good.